My name is Latedra and life has broken me many times. I didn't know if I could keep going. But the truth was and still is, is that I am and never was alone. I just needed to find my Father.
3 To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:2 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;3 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;4 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;5 A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;6 A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;7 A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
Monday, October 31, 2011
blessing in the water
Let's go down by the riverside
Leave your problems all behind
You can rest troubled minds
Down by the riverside
If I concentrate on all the bad
And all the things I wish I had
How can the dark clouds ever pass
Weeping may endure for a night
But joy comes in the morning light
Gotta keep the spirit right
So no matter what the people say
Ain't nobody taking this joy away
In spite of everything I've been through I can say
Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus, Thank you Jesus
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Jesus' Promise to us
John 14:12-14
Monday, October 10, 2011
making a change
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Jesus Anointed by a Sinful Woman
[36] Now one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, so he went to the Pharisee's house and reclined at the table. [37] When a woman who had lived a sinful life in that town learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee's house, she brought an alabaster jar of perfume, [38] and as she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
[39] When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, "If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is -- that she is a sinner."
[40] Jesus answered him, "Simon, I have something to tell you."
"Tell me, teacher," he said.
[41] "Two men owed money to a certain moneylender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. [42] Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he canceled the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?"
[43] Simon replied, "I suppose the one who had the bigger debt canceled."
"You have judged correctly," Jesus said.
[44] Then he turned toward the woman and said to Simon, "Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. [45] You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. [46] You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. [47] Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven -- for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little."
[48] Then Jesus said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."
[49] The other guests began to say among themselves, "Who is this who even forgives sins?"
[50] Jesus said to the woman, "Your faith has saved you; go in peace."
The woman knew her life was full of sin and instead of speaking about her sin, she pleaded Jesus by anointing(to rub an oily or stick substance) him. the lesson is who loves Jesus more and what are you willing to do to prove it for your sins to be forgiven.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Desperate
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
my little moments of smiles
kiss kiss kisses
pecan pie
kiss kiss kisses
Sunday, June 19, 2011
small steps
I went through every possible way the convo could go and what I would say. When I acutally had the conversation, it didn't come out at all like planned. I wrote something about change last week and learning, by God did that help. I opened my study book(like I always did nowadays when I'm stuck) and returned to one of the pages from last week.(I think be devine intervention.)
Here are a couple of paragraghaps from God's Graduate, "The head grows by taking in, but the heart grows by giving out.
"You're designed to grow. It is the job you're here to do. How you grow and how qiuckly you learn depends on this balence of head and heart. What you take and what you give are important to all that you become.....
"Growth is an action. Its something you do. You can welcome it, embrace it, and let it become an intentional part of your life, or you can be surpised when it feels thrust upon you without even beckoning it."(That's where I suffered. It was thrusted upon me and I did not like it, no way no how.) "Growing happens each time we hurt, each time we fall down, and each time we must start again."
(Comfort I learned is something we use as a way out, so that we dont have to deal with our realities. I met a very nice woman by the name of Vicki. And she told me things about me no one knew. Now we've all watch shows where good deductive skills play a huge hand in things like that but when I tell you I prayed for strength and she brought me so much more in six mintues that I've failed to "realized" or rathe denied, in my twenty two years.)
Augustine of Hippo said, "if you are pleased with what you are, you have stoped already. If you say, 'It is enough,' you are lost. Keep on walking, moving forward, trying for the goal. Don't try to stop on the way, or to go back, or to deviate from it."
"Growing means you keep walking. Today, walk intentionally toward those thngs that challenge your heart and mind and keep you aspiring to become more, give more, or believe more than you did yesterday."
(I hope those few words help you to deal with change. I know its hard but whatever God takes he replaces.)
Kiss, Kiss, Kisses
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Recognition
Because our faces give us away every day. Whether we're angry, sad, happy or in love. I know when I wake up and the first time I see myself in the mirrior, I know what kind of day it will be. I make a conscience desicion right then and there, if I'll let it simmer for a minute before I walk out of my walls of comfort(I'll explain that later). Or, if I'll ride it out and see what the day will bring. Or mabey, right there, standing infront of the mirror, I say, today will be a good day. Today wil be a lazy day. Either way, I will recognize my face and decide to change or not to change.
I woke up today and did not recognize myself. This is the second day where I felt this way. Have I any reason not to LOOK like myself? Feel like myself, mabey. But to not look like me. That's scary. How can I not recognize who I am? Is it because change is happening or is it because I am losing myself? But shouldn't I still LOOK like me. They say the eyes are the windows to the soul, so what is my face-the gatekeeper? And why has he changed?
I once read, "Only you will know yourself well enough to be able to say out loud that you do need to change or you don't need to change." But what happens when that change is automatic and before you realize-hey, I've changed-its too late. Or is it? Or when will you know? Are there specific growth periods we must go through? If so can I get a handbook?
"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." So I ask this, who is deterinming your steps? Who are you changing for? If you're changing or you don't recognize you in the bathroom mirror, why? Are we not happy as we are, and our sub-concious says that we need a change. So without alerting our minds(and sometimes bodies) that a change is happening, we feel, icky. Not right. Like we need a reboot or something. Or mabey we don't recognize our faces.
But what makes us not know our faces? You look and you see you, but something different. Mabey your eyes look too small or your nose grew wider. You have more forehead than you remember. Has that double chin always been there? Have my eyes always been brown; I thought they were almond.
Well, if still you see something different and haven't a clue as to why, what have you done lately? Have you volunteered more that usual? Given more tithes? Cursed an elderly in the parking lot? Didn't open the door when the doorbell ranged, cause you didn't FEEL like it? Or what if you did? What if you opened the door when you didn't feel like it? Or mabey you didn't pay your tithes? Mabey you helped an elderly to and from her car AND during her shopping trip? Can those small things determine change? Yes. Those small changes can help us grow into better or worse people before we know it. Its said that its better to give than receive. We all know that the majority of us like to recieve more than give. So when we're asking, we need to be mindful of what we're asking. Those little questions can changes us.
"What you take and what you give are important to all you become." So another question, what have you given, or taken that has brought about such a drastic change? Or is it the task or the mentailty, of doing something different or moral in your own heart and in your God's eye? Again, the conscience decision to make a change. At what point do you stop ignoring that elderly lady who shops at your favorite store every Tuesday with you? When do you finally speak to the mailman instead of giving him the evil eye? Mabey you've let the neighborhood kids cut your yard and afterwards handed out freezy pops. And mabey, two weeks ago, you spoke to that person you avoided cause you would swear up and down that you both "hated" each other. Why would you do such a thing?
Have we learned to be better people or worse? Have we given ourselves to much or not enough? What have we given that we do not recognize our own face? What have we learned? To be nice? To put others before you? To be kind rewind? But how about that; let's rewind. So we've extened ourselves in a direction. We've either did right, did wrong or did something different. Have we learned to do something different and that difference has grown us to a place of none recognition? I say yes. If we have tried and done something out of our normal comfortable box, that has either affected us inside so much so as to effect our preception of ourselves on the outside, I say our eyes are just catching up to everythng else.
Change is about learning, its about growing. Henry Ford, said that, "anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty."
So, do we think that we've learned all that we had to learn. You are a crazy person to believe that. We are steadily growing, changing and learning. If you haven't really looked in the mirror in a while then mabey, its time. Mabey we've learned some things that we now must reflect on. Now we must determine if we want this change. You can learn from it, if you want it or, you will learn that this new change is not for you and you go back to your old ways. Again Henry Ford said it best.
All I can say is, change, learn grow. "Let the wise listen and add to their learning, and let the discerning get guidance." And may we recognize when change is happening on the inside so that we may never be startled by what we see on the outside. Let the two be in harmony and be just. For we decide our paths and God will lead us.
Works sited
God's Graduate;Moore K pg:24,92, 116
Holy Bible
Pg:Proverbs 16:9;2Peter 3:18; Proverbs 1:5