small steps

I took a big step today. A step I haven't took in quite awhile. I told someone how I felt. Instead of keeping it in and letting it fester into resentment then eventually hate, I went into my sanctuary and talked it out. (Mostly n my head but I like to think God heard me.)
I went through every possible way the convo could go and what I would say. When I acutally had the conversation, it didn't come out at all like planned. I wrote something about change last week and learning, by God did that help. I opened my study book(like I always did nowadays when I'm stuck) and returned to one of the pages from last week.(I think be devine intervention.)
Here are a couple of paragraghaps from God's Graduate, "The head grows by taking in, but the heart grows by giving out.
"You're designed to grow. It is the job you're here to do. How you grow and how qiuckly you learn depends on this balence of head and heart. What you take and what you give are important to all that you become.....
"Growth is an action. Its something you do. You can welcome it, embrace it, and let it become an intentional part of your life, or you can be surpised when it feels thrust upon you without even beckoning it."(That's where I suffered. It was thrusted upon me and I did not like it, no way no how.) "Growing happens each time we hurt, each time we fall down, and each time we must start again."
(Comfort I learned is something we use as a way out, so that we dont have to deal with our realities. I met a very nice woman by the name of Vicki. And she told me things about me no one knew. Now we've all watch shows where good deductive skills play a huge hand in things like that but when I tell you I prayed for strength and she brought me so much more in six mintues that I've failed to "realized" or rathe denied, in my twenty two years.)
Augustine of Hippo said, "if you are pleased with what you are, you have stoped already. If you say, 'It is enough,' you are lost. Keep on walking, moving forward, trying for the goal. Don't try to stop on the way, or to go back, or to deviate from it."
"Growing means you keep walking. Today, walk intentionally toward those thngs that challenge your heart and mind and keep you aspiring to become more, give more, or believe more than you did yesterday."
(I hope those few words help you to deal with change. I know its hard but whatever God takes he replaces.)

Kiss, Kiss, Kisses